Loneliness and Longing

Loneliness and Longing   It has been 5 years since my mother died. It is my son’s 5th birthday. A Lot can change in 5 years – don’t be fooled by life’s seaming consistency and repetitiveness.  Yet- even though I had that major turning point and life change, you do eventually adjust to the new…

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A Mother’s Heart is Divided

My heart is broken. It’s not bent or a tiny bit hurt, it feels like it has broken in half. I am grieving the loss of someone I didn’t know. I never met. But I know him intimately. Because he represents all of our children. All of our hearts. A mother’s heart is divided. As each child…

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The Nine Days of Mourning

Sadness. Grief. Loss. Hope. Change. Crying. Relief The cycle continues. Hope. Change. Relief. Grief. Fear. Fear of moving on, forgetting, remembering when you don’t want too. Being too busy and not busy enough. Finding comfort in healthy things- but what about unhealthy things? The balance. The pull. The draw. Never knowing if you are on…

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Should we Take Life for Granted?

Should we Take Life for Granted?   Taking things for granted is a funny thing.    At face value, it sounds like a negative thing. Something to be avoided at all costs.    But two different instances in my life made this concept stick out in my mind, and I had to assess if this…

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Grief and Love

Life isn’t about me. It can’t be solely about me; it has to be bigger than me alone. I feel so small and I feel so big. And, I can experience both grief and love… at the same time. My body feels small in such a big world but my feelings feel like they have…

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